She reaches 30 days in treatment this week. It’s the point in treatment that brings mixed emotions.

I spoke with her last night and she says she is ready to go. She’s making plans. And she sounds different.

Not driven by excitement different. No, it’s more like unease.

The last time I saw her (a week ago), she was energized. Helping others. Making plans to get her GED, and she seemed proud.

She took herself off of suboxone last Monday and is experiencing withdrawals. She sounds different, afraid.

I believe she is at a turning point.

In my opinion, she should stay for more treatment. But. It’s not my addiction, not my recovery, not my decision.

I just hope she stays a little longer if that’s what’s best.